There ARE things it’s much easier to say over the phone
It’s almost Christmas, so I hope everyone’s done their shopping, made their plans, traveled safely (or has plans to travel safely), and will enjoy their week! Me? I’m writing posts! So many to do, and White Album 2 is still me going up the hill. If I get a few more out of the way I’ll be on the downslope, tho.
Beating Themselves Up
That seemed to be the theme of this episode. From Haruki feeling completely guilty for ‘cheating’ on Setsuna, and leading her on with thinking that he’s sick, to Kazusa with her attempt at a final look at Haruki before she leaves, to Setsuna admitting to Io that she pushed Haruki, everyone’s being hard on themselves. Ah, teen love. And while everyone is telling Haruki to cool it with thinking about Kazusa, because he’s got Setsuna right there, that’s not what he’s going to do.
Setsuna confesses to Io
And Setsuna knows the score. As they pretty much showed us last time, she saw Kazusa’s secret kiss, and that’s what really made her confess to Haruki. And she feels like she was the one that got between two people who loved each other: in their song, and in their romance. Even if she describes herself as a bad woman, I don’t think she is. I think she had a chance, and she took it. For all she knew, Haruki would have devoted himself to her, and they could have lived happily ever after. That it didn’t turn out that way isn’t her fault. Sometimes you have to grab for the brass ring, and sometimes you might miss it.
She might be ok with it later, but it hurts now
And even if Setsuna’s sad about it, I think she’d probably be happy for Kazusa, at least part of her. She’s always implored Kazusa to be honest about her love for Haruki. And even if she’s losing Haruki to Kazusa, I think she’d want to keep Kazusa as a friend. It seems to me that Setsuna wouldn’t be torn up about losing Haruki to her best friend the way that Kazusa was. And maybe it would be different because she tried and lost out. Or maybe it would do the same thing to Setsuna that it’s done to Kazusa.
Making It Right
I don’t know if it really does make it right for Haruki to confess to Kazusa, while at the same time she confesses to him. But it’s at least honest. I don’t think it’s the best way that Haruki could have handled it, but at least it’s not running around behind Setsuna’s back anymore. When he ran off, ran away from her, in front of their friends, that was as public a declaration as you could get. And while it doesn’t necessarily mean they broke up at that instant, since they could still get back together if Kazusa continues with her plan of leaving, or even if it doesn’t work out, it’s stating his intentions. And while it hurt Setsuna, and probably made Takeya, Io, and Chikashi very angry at Haruki, I think it’s probably not terrible that it happened with them around, for Setsuna’s sake.
Such an enigmatic look
And it brought back some memories for me, too. No, we weren’t technically dating (her parents wouldn’t let her date) when I met another girl who I had a crush on, but we had been spending a lot of time together at school. And when I met this new girl at a party, I pretty much dumped her and started dating the new girl. It happens. It wasn’t very nice of me, and the fact that I’m still married to that girl I started dating doesn’t mean I couldn’t have handled it better. It definitely hurt her feelings. And it was hard for me, but I was really into this new girl. And Haruki really loves Kazusa, and she him. It happens.
Could she really leave after this?
But now, Kazusa is faced with a hard choice. Having now felt the pain of falling in love with someone, and maybe the elation of getting together with them, will she now go through the pain of leaving Haruki to go with her mother to Vienna? It’s where her future lies, but can she contemplate a future away from Haruki now that circumstances have changed? Or will she feel worse, having now broken up Haruki and Setsuna, and leave anyway?
It’s weird. Last week I (and Kazusa) harangued Haruki about his unfaithfulness to Setsuna. But this week, I’m almost cheering on his confession to Kazusa. And I think the difference was that he made it clear to Setsuna, even if he didn’t tell her. She knows who he loves more. And Setsuna knows that Kazusa loves him. But it hurts. And it hurts even more that she is being left out. Will Haruki call her back? How will she find out? We’ve got one more episode, and even though I thought this would have been a not-bad ending to the first series here, we’ll see what happens next week.