ZOMG it’s 33 Degrees Celsius here but it’s snowing!!!

Yeah, lol. If you have noticed it, there’s falling snow now on my site XD. I was reallycurious at first on how Kairu and Kitsune had snow falling on their blogs. Now, I jumped in the wagon and sprinkled some on to Metanorn as well XD… It’s really nice IMO because I could at least experience snow here even though it’s a tropical country T.T…

Btw, new banner!!! I must say that this is a REALLY weird banner because I put it up on upside down. Well, there’s a really deep personal meaning to it why I did that XD… And also, it adds to the effect of the falling snow. It’s looks like the snow falls upside down from the ground O_O… Hell yeah for mystery and weirdness. The wallpaper is from Kanon and credits to Animepaper.net ^_^…

As you can all see, Ayu is alone in the sad snow, the picture gives the feeling of both melancholy and freedom as well.. Which is I’m really feeling right now. Well (ok, forgive me for being randomly emo on the next few lines…) actually my inspiration for this banner was my ex. I think that there’s nothing wrong with being single again, it’s actually nice to be free. I can stay out late at night, I can flirt with anyone, I can wear whatever I want, I can be my plain self. Most of all, the whole world can see that I can take care of myself. But to tell the truth, I really love the times that somebody walks me home, the times where I’m trying to look and act better for someone, and I love it when someone holds me when I’m feeling weak to go on and when someone pulls me out of the street because many speedy cars pass by… It’s really nice to be free, but I feel lonely missing someone… Ok, I’ll stop now and excuse me because I don’t slit my wrists… Well, past is past, two things only: it’s just that I’ll move on or he’ll come back to me (in a snap XDD lol).

Ok, I’m not really sad or anything when he left, it’s just that I missed him when I went shopping at the mall alone T.T (I’ll admit, I’m a selfish bitch…)… Anyway, I’ll end this post with a song from Hilary Duff called Holiday (my new fave song)…

Lyrics:

I remember summers, you & me lasting forever
Holidays come & we’d never, never ever be apart
I remember spending, all of my time, every minute
The two of us we had our own rhythm, intune with the beat of my heart

Now in the summer (I miss you)
& in the winter (I miss you)
It don’t matter (what I do)
Since you went away, since you went away
Now in the summer (I miss you)
& in the winter (I miss you)
It don’t matter what I do
It don’t matter what I say
You left it

You took a holiday from us
Took a trip & left your love
If your heart wasn’t down forever
You should have told me where it was
You took a holiday from me
I guess you needed to be free
Would have loved you with no measure
& now you got me asking
Where (where did you go huh?, where did you go huh?)
Where (where did you go huh?, where did you go huh?) did you go?
(where did you go huh?) Where did my heart go?
You took a holiday
Where (where did you go huh?, where did you go huh?)
Where (where did you go huh?, where did you go huh?) did you go?
Why did you leave?
This ain’t no holiday for me

Walkin’, watching you leave there’s no talking
Back in my arms it’s so shocking, guess forever was just a dream
I think we could have made it, but our history now is fading
My image of the future is changing & baby damn that thing called destiny, got the best of me

Now in the summer (I miss you)
& in the winter (I miss you)
It don’t matter what I do
It don’t matter what I say
You left it

You took a holiday from us
Took a trip & left your love
If your heart wasn’t down forever
You should have told me where it was
You took a holiday from me
I guess you needed to be free
Would have loved you with no measure
& now you got me asking
Where (where did you go huh?, where did you go huh?)
Where (where did you go huh?, where did you go huh?) did you go?
(where did you go huh?) Where did my heart go?
You took a holiday
Where (where did you go huh?, where did you go huh?)
Where (where did you go huh?, where did you go huh?) did you go?
Why did you leave?
This ain’t no holiday for me

If I could take a step back, make it turn out different
I would hide those bags, and Id tear that ticket
Never thought you and me would be done in a minute
Now Im making new plans and youre just not in it

If I could take a step back, make it turn out different
I would hide those bags, and Id tear that ticket
Never thought you and me would be done in a minute
Now Im making new plans and youre just not in it
(Where did you go?)

You took a Holiday from us
Took a trip and left your love
If your heart went down forever
Shouldve told me where it was
You took a Holiday from me
I guess you needed to be free
Would have loved you with no measure
And now you got me asking

Where did you go? (Where?) Where did you go? (Where?)
Where did you go? (Where?) Where did you go? (Where?)
Where did you go? (Where?) Where did my heart go?
You take a Holiday

Where did you go? (Where?) Where did you go? (Where?)
Where did you go? (Where?) Where did you go? (Where?)
Where did you go? (Where?) Why do you live?
This ain’t no Holiday for me

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